Yes, I've been scarce lately but actually I haven't. What? I don't know. But for real, I've been blogging over at myspace for some reason, mainly because I get a little personal and kind of want to keep precious things precious. if you're my friend on myspace go right over there. If not, you're welcome to befriend me. I'm nice, I just sometimes like to keep some things a little more quiet.

Short version: I've been having palpitations and dizziness something fierce. I came off gleemonex blue a few days back and it's ROUGH. Or at least I think it's rough. No one's willing to admit it's as a result of coming off the meds, but I kind of think, well, it is a weird coincidence, right? Anyway, lots of tests, lots of prodding. I'm hooked up to a Holter monitor right now.

Hey, so I'm watching this show on PBS about Mormons. Hey, did you know there was a whole series about mormons on PBS? I DID NOT. NONE OF YOU TOLD ME. You know I love mormons, why would you keep this from me? Why the hate? But at least I caught the conclusion. I am watching them talk a little about the history of the lds church and the anti-mormon sentiment across the US in the early days of the church and thinking hm, the backlash was on a larger scale but it's not unlike the backlash against Scientology nowadays. Now, I'm not a Scientologist, I do have my issues with their practices, but it is interesting.

Labels: health, television

So it only flurried for a minute. no sticking because it was 60 yesterday.

I only know it was snowing because I walked over for my Neurology appt. See, you may remember that I had some dizzy spells and numbness over a few months and finally decided to see a MD about it. I had an MRI on my birthday, a followup the day after. Today was neurology where the MD found nothing wrong so decided on another MRI. Now what you're thinking is that they really have no need for that since they did one on the 20th of last month. But see, this one's different. This one's head and c-spine. The first one was to look at the brain for lesions, this is to look for something else. What that is I'm not sure, but i'm sure I'll find out.

Labels: health

Health: I looked up my lab results. THey didn't make much sense but I saw that a few were read which meant they were outside the normal reference range. I was googling how to interpret these results (ah, google, what CAN'T you find?) when I decided I'd be better off grabbing a nurse in our clinic. I was informed that everything was mostly normal except I was a bit anemic (which can happen to ladies on a fairly regular basis IF you know what I mean) and I have a bit of an infection somewhere (I was informed that my allergies could be causing this). So we'll see what the final verdict is.

Birthday: the second wave of birthday fun rolled in. Apparently my bosses didn't know that I wouldn't be in tomorrow and had a surprise planned. THis had to be aborted FAST apparently so they handed me a bag and informed me that yes, it included items from their offices but that shouldn't be an indicator of care level. Sure enough, it consisted of small bottles of lotion, snacks, gum, candy, pencils, and at the bottom was a brand new unopened Robert Johnson CD. Which means someone (and I have a good idea who, I informed her that I would take it home and rip it and then let her "borrow" it) had a perfectly good unopened Robert Johnson CD just sitting around her office.

Labels: drama, health

I'm in a bad mood so I'll keep this short.

My near-fainting spells are getting worse. I can't turn my head without my arm and leg going tingly and partially numb.

I can't get in to see my MD so they put me in to see some random MD who didn't really listen to me and just had me set up for an MRI (on my freakin birthday for crying outside), a carotid doppler, and some blood work. Sure, I'm thankful I've got good insurance and I was able to get in fast but, you know, whatever. Let's order a bunch of expensive tests, it's better than actually listening!

I'm not a traditional patient--I don't demand everything in the book when I'm having health issues. I'm slowly trying to get off the few medications I'm on. I know that my low copays are only a fraction of the actual costs and I know that the actual costs are what make insurance premiums so high. I'm an educated health care consumer and I don't like being passed off in lieu of actual treatment. She didn't even listen to all I had to say!

I've got a history of dizzy spells but never to near blackout levels.

I'm, understandably, freaked the fuck out.

So much for short. I'm scared, nervous, and I talk a lot when I'm nervous. Well, I suppose I type a lot when I'm nervous.

Labels: drama, health